I thought maybe if I do that and become selfless instead of selfish and continuing that journey in destroying myself and destroying whatever hope and faith my kids had in me. At that moment, I thought by being open, honest, transparent and holding myself accountable instead of making excuses. I was like, maybe this was something that meant to happen? Maybe this is something that God allowed to happen so he could open my eyes and I said what I think I need to do is go public and just let people know what I've been going through, what I've been trying to hide and maybe I'll inspire some people to want help. A few days after that, my wife and I were sitting talking about it for days. I thought I was hiding addiction and struggles with mental health. I was like, what have I done? What are my daughters gonna say and what do they think of me? What kind of parent am I being? It felt horrible, but to turn that into a positive, that was the catalyst in what woke me up and what I decided that day was different from any other day was I couldn't hide it anymore. The whole flight home was the longest day of my life. That day when I knew how I was living and the mistakes I was making were affecting all the people that I loved in a really negative way. That mistake that I made sent ripples through my family and friends and everybody that knew me. The first thing that came to my mind wasn't my own reputation or what I did, it was that my daughters have to go to school and meet people whose parents know who I am.
But what that did was open my eyes, because the next morning before I could even get on the plane, I'm hearing from family members and my wife that it's already on TMZ. When the push happened on stage in our group, there are no excuses for that and that was a horrible thing to do. But because I'm a Christian, I do believe when some people make a decision that they take a step in a certain direction, they know because of faith and how they believe that they're done with something or they've made a change and it's permanent, if that makes any sense. I'm in my third year of sobriety and it's an amazing thing. We worked together and vibed off of each other and always have, so I did quite a few songs with him on this album, but there's a few more songs I wanna do and I feel like once I've done those songs it'll be complete.īRYAN ABRAMS: Wow! The recovery journey has been something else man. I love the piano and strings in it and that's all Hamza.
#COLOR ME BADD LEAD SINGER SOFTWARE#
Of course it evolved with the new software and new sound. While the music kind of left the 90s sound and is now kind of rotating and coming back, it's so exciting to me and perfect timing because I still feel like we have that sound. Hamza Lee also produced "I Adore Mi Amor" on the first Color Me Badd album, so he and I have stayed connected and continued to write through all of these years. Melvin actually went to Millwood High School with Hamza Lee who produced that track.
#COLOR ME BADD LEAD SINGER MOVIE#
I am a Choctaw Indian that I never really talked about much, but I'm really into trying to continue doing a lot of stuff homegrown, you know what I'm saying? The movie was filmed here. I was really excited especially because I'm the only one from my group that still lives in Oklahoma. Whenever Melvin Childs contacted me about wanting to put that song in the movie For the Love of Money, it blew my mind. I'm really excited and the cool thing is, it's songs that I've recorded through this journey and finding myself. BRYAN ABRAMS: Actually, I have enough material for an album.
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